Waiting...............

So Sean and I have decided to wait until the baby is born to find out what he or she will be. I have said this so many times but people are either just ignoring it or don't want to believe it. I don't have a set reason on why we don't want to find out but our biggest thing is this baby was a complete surprise so we are going to leave it just that. Now I have to admit Sean has been going up on down with our decision saying he doesn't know if he can wait that long. I have to remind him on our decision and my thoughts on it and he is right there by my side again. We got to see our baby last Friday and that made this pregnancy real. I'm still not 100% on board and I hate to say that but it's true. I was more than happy to be pregnant with Michael and I love being his mom. It's hard to imagine life with another one, a different one. That's a different story though.  So I am slowly getting on board its just taking its time to adjusting to the fact. Maybe once I can see the baby moving? Maybe then it will be "Real"? I am pretty sure I won't be fully on board until I hear this baby cry. I know then my heart will melt all over again and say wow, I did it again, he/she is really mine. I have talked with other moms who have two kids and as guilty as I feel for having negative thoughts & I have found it to be very common with moms. Well I am just starting to ramble so I will leave it as that for now.  

Dancing Flutters?

Today we got to see our little angel for the first time and it was amazing. It was hiding at first and was hard to see but we finally got a good look from the side view. Once we got a good shot from the side it's like the baby knew it was being watched and rolled over like it was looking at us. It moved it's arm's up and down like it was dancing and kickin it's legs. If this baby is this active I must be feeling those dancin flutters. I wasn't sure if it was the baby or not but now I am pretty sure. I am so excited to see this baby grow. I think today PREGNANCY has finally settled in and it's real now. Seeing that heart beating and the baby moving was just amazing.

Goodbye 2010

This post is late but what else is new with me. I have a tendency to be late for everything. 2010 was a great year. I got to experience great milestones with Michael and I also celebrated my two year wedding anniversary. We didn't do a whole lot of traveling or get to go camping except one time but it was a great year. I also went back to work this year. After being out of the job for almost two years it was a big leap but I did it. It was very hard to leave Michael but I think we have both gotten used to the sced. I am on. I am excited for 2011. This year holds big things for the Gandy household and the time is almost here for a huge leap, we may not be 100% on board but we are ready for the next step and a new journey. Also we are expecting a new edition in July and now that I am 3 months along the excitement is getting to be more and more. I just can't wait to start feeling the baby move. That is what I missed more than anything while pregnant with Michael. Goodbye 2010 you hold fond memories, and Hello 2011, bring it on :)