20m & 15d
That is the age of Michael when his sister entered this world.
20 months old is just a few days away for my little surprise.
How does this make me feel?
Just Sad
Sad that for 9 months of Michaels life I was not mentally present as his mother.
Sad that I missed so much with him that I've witnessed with Shelby.
If you ask my husband, he will tell you I've had a heavy heart for months. Bearing witness to all stages Shelby has gone through and hardly remembering any of it with Michael.
I'm just sad that I feel I missed so much.
That lovely baby fever is also at a high with me right now. This is the longest I have gone since 09' without being pregnant. Not to mention it seems like this year is baby making year as 09' seemed to be.
I can say this. I am excited that I have been present with both of my kids for a solid 20 months and plan on staying present. I am beyond blessed to call these Angels mine. I have watched them grow and flourish and am thrilled to bear witness to both of their milestones!
