~Excitment in the air~

Bear with me, this post is a bit of a ramble *Sigh* A little over a month, Michael will be one, ONE! Holy moly where has this year gone? For months I have been dreading this, because my baby will no longer be a baby but a little boy. I can however say that the dread has gone away and my excitement has come full force. I am so excited for his big day. So excited to relive my memories of the day he blessed us. I am so excited for his first birthday. The planning and trying to figure out what to do and where to have it. Today I finally got some things ordered and where we are having his party booked. I wish we could just do it at our house but we hardly survive in here let alone a whole truckload of people.

I took Michael to Cafe' Sip N Play today and met another mommy who had a 9 month old. Michael and him played and it was super cute to watch. They would both squeal with excitement and then their arms would start flying and the smiles, oh the smiles :) But besides that, haha, off track there, another mommy came in with her little girl and then I saw the car seat she was carrying with the most precious cargo, a newborn, ahhhh. Now usually my heart aches because of how much I miss Michael being so small and how much I wish I would have wrapped myself into that stage more, not that I already wasn't, but just enjoying and remembering every moment. Well today my heart didn't twist, my throat didn't dry up, and I didn't get choked up, instead I thought isn't she adorable? looked at Michael and said "That's what you used to look like, so tiny, but your a big boy now, your almost 1!" I was so proud of myself for being able to stand my ground and not emotionally break down seeing a "newbie" I know I am not the only one in the world who feels like this I am sure, and I am surprised at how many people can control these feelings of wanting another "little one" until they know the time is right and not just having one to handle their feelings.

So anyways the planning is officially started, the date and time is set! Now just got to gather decorations, and figure out if I want to attempt to make Michael his first cake or have someone make it for me, and then presents, ahhh what do I get the little one. He loves to make noise and loves to dance and loves to push things around and LOVES TO BOUNCE, is there a gift that combines all those into one, maybe two? I may sound crazy but I want my son to have it all, to enjoy life, and I know that he doesn't need presents to be happy, but I want him to look back when he's older and say my mom really cared about my happiness, just thinking about it warms my heart :) Ok I'm done rambling my odd thoughts